I Know What I Need to Do

I don’t know much, but I know I cannot live here much longer.  I have to go somewhere where it is sunny more than it is in this place.  The summers are beautiful, but they are too short-lived.  It rained most of August this year.  And the other ten months…ouch.  The grey and the mold depresses and dampens me.  I turn into another person.  I need the sun.  I need to see light.  I have rarely needed air conditioning.  I have been my best on the hottest days.  Everyone else is complaining and I’m soaking it up.  I get cold in the air-conditioned buildings and go sit in my car with the windows up on those hottest days, warming my bones, heating up my core.

The sun is out today and it is telling me something.  It is saying get out of that cold and damp.  Come be with me somewhere warm most of the time.

I can write anywhere.  I can’t survive here.  I have little doubt that if I do not leave this place I will die sooner rather than later.  I may have a physcial body moving around, but it will be spiritless.

4 thoughts on “I Know What I Need to Do

  1. So, I’m not the only person who feels cold in an air conditioned office. Is it a condition we have or is the office world geared towards overweight people with too much insulation?

    Sorry to hear about your relationship woes. Maybe you shouldn’t get your hopes up too high too soon. Not that I’m in a position to instruct others in finding someone, really.

    I take it you live somewhere on the west coast, judging by the weather.

  2. It isn’t only offices! It’s grocery stores too. Why is it that it has to be freezing in there year round? And if it’s warm outside…forget it! Don’t they realize that because it’s warm outside we aren’t wearing any clothes? Apparently not.

    Yes, hopes up too soon was a problem this time round. I’ve learned that one the kick in the teeth method. But what would I have to write about if my love life were blissful? Being cold, I suppose.

  3. There’s a foot of snow on the ground here but it is SUNNY! Beautiful, blinding sun! Who cares if it’s so cold that your boogers freeze! At least you won’t have the car door ripped from your hands by the wind and become thoroughly soaked by the rain in two steps. The summers are glorious here – that’s why they call it the Sun Basin. Maybe you should move here dear. 😉

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