I realized after posting my last blog that I have had a dearth of deep thoughts lately. NONE. It’s all nonsense. I wonder if it’s because I’ve been feasting on nonsense for the last week. But no, my dearth of deep thoughts has been going on a lot longer than this decadent, Venusian week. Maybe it is because there are so many other enormous changes going on at the moment that such happenings have sucked my focus from philosophical ramblings. Maybe it’s the books that I’m reading. But that wouldn’t be it. Usually books like the ones I’m reading at the moment make me want to write and write and write, but I don’t have that urge, and this is unusual because needing to write usually keeps me up at night.
The simple fact of the matter is that my brain has been dry for several weeks now and the words have not been pounding at my skull trying to escape. The books I’m working on that seemed so important even a month ago seem trivial and annoying now. I hope their seeming importance returns so I’ll have some desire to work on them again. Maybe this is what is meant by losing the muse. Who knows? I’m not terribly concerned because it hasn’t been going on for very long and I DO have quite a lot of other things to concern myself with. My house is selling and I need to move in a month. I’m going to San Diego for a conference and need to prepare. I need to find a place to live somewhere besides Portland and find Milla a Waldorf school there. I guess those are big things. But usually I would want to write about them. Maybe I’m reacting to a long insomnia spell that is finally over. I’ve been sleeping like a baby. Perhaps the brain is healing from that. Actually, this could definitely be the case. I was so sleep deprived there for a while I couldn’t remember words like remember. Uh, you know, that word about keeping something in your brain? What is it? Huh?
Anyway, until the deep thoughts come back I’ll continue posting pointless nothingness like this and today’s earlier post. Good times.