Woke up this morning to my dog Molly having a major seizure. Her head was all twisted to the left her spine all to the right she could not stand she was shitting and pissing herself and her eyes were pointing in opposite directions. It was horrible. I’m kind of weirded out by the fact that last night I was writing about my other dog’s death, something I haven’t written about in months and I woke up to this happening.
I took her to the vet and she was not optimistic. However since Molly seemed to improve over the course of the visit, we decided to allow her to come home and say bye to everyone. Through the day, she improved to about 95% normal. If you didn’t know her, you wouldn’t know she is still off. She’s got this Picasso look to her eyes. They’re kind of cattywompus. I took her back to the vet this afternoon and we have adopted a wait and see attitude. As long as she seems to be comfortable and her quality of life is decent, she gets to stay with us, but we’re clearly on a track out. It is most likely Molly has a brain tumor. I could spend a thousand bucks to try and find out what is wrong, but there is obviously neurologic damage and even knowing wouldn’t improve her long-term prognosis, so I’m just going to let what it is run its course.
I’m too tired to say any more than this. I sobbed all morning long. I’m spent. Grief takes energy and now mine is gone.