It does not matter when I go to bed, I wake up at 6:43 a.m. every day, usually to pee, then cannot go back to sleep. By the time my body might consider going back to sleep, it has to pee again. Pregnancy is so fun. There is also often the problem of a numb hip or arm. My middle is so much heavier than I’m used to, it seems to cut off circulation. I noticed a reflection of myself yesterday while waiting in a line. I look funny. I have skinny legs and skinny arms and then this watermelon in the middle.
I am carrying differently than I did with Milla, but this does not surprise me. Milla obliterated the flat and tiny stomach muscles I had enjoyed my entire life up to that point. I think she also shifted my guts around. This baby also seems to like to hang out up in my ribs more than Milla ever did. My sister complained about her babies (she has 4!!) bruising her ribs. I had no context. Milla liked to lie on my pelvis. That hurt. I think wherever baby hangs out inside us eventually hurts. Anyway, this baby moves all over, but she does hang out near my ribs and it is quite uncomfortable. I push and shove and rub and move her back down. Lately she has been lower in my pelvis (in fact she’s wiggling there now), but it’s getting closer to birth time. In fact yesterday was 2 months to due date exactly, so there isn’t a lot of time left.
I do believe I have the sweetest child in the world. As I sit here I see the little pile of jewelry she made me last night while I was working away on the computer. She and I were talking yesterday about some girls she met in our building. They told her they could not imagine having no television (we do not have one). I reiterated to Milla that I think it’s better not having one, that I never even notice not having one. The jewelry-making provides an example why. When we are home in the evenings, or even during the day, Milla finds things to do with herself. She knits. She crochets. She draws and draws and draws. She makes me jewelry. When she grows up, I will have all these mementos of a childhood spent doing things rather than staring at the idiot box. That’s a good enough reason for me not to have one.