I hate not being able to sleep. For most of my adult life, I have manifested stress as insomnia. It’s worse when I have something pending the following day, like an early appointment, or even work. Sometimes though, when there is really no reason to have to get up early (or at all for that matter), I will awaken in the middle of the night or too early in the morning and not be able to go back to sleep. Then when I do, the second sleep is usually too sound, or I have to wake up in the middle of its too-soundness, and end up feeling like a slug all the next day.
Last night’s insomnia was the result of being just too warm. We had a houseguest who slept in Milla’s room, so Milla slept with us. In addition, we kept the bedroom door closed. I wakened at 2:57 a.m. broiling like a roast chicken. I opened the windows, but then couldn’t sleep because even with the earplugs I never sleep without, I could hear the noisy street (I have mentioned how much I hate this apartment, haven’t I?). I also had to get up and go to the bathroom twice. Then the brain started worrying about money, and arguing with the student loan lenders I had to send a letter too, and wondering how we are going to make the sublet request go through, and forget it. Sleep wasn’t happening.
I was finally able to stop the brain from spinning on each of my worrywart topics, but even after changing to new earplugs, the windows were too loud. After lying there uncomfortably, I finally opened the bedroom door and closed the windows. That seemed to do the trick and I fell back asleep. I woke again once to go to the bathroom (pregnant woman’s bane), but was able to fall back asleep. Damn, I hate insomnia.